Between Neon and Reflection
There are evenings when everything exists at once. Energy and exhaustion. Euphoria and reflection. The urge to move and the need to stay still.
I’m sitting in a rehab room right now, somewhere between therapy schedules, mineral water, and the soft hum of neon light. Outside it’s cold. Inside, unexpectedly quiet. And in that quiet, something strange happens: things begin to settle. Thoughts surface that usually get lost in everyday noise. Feelings that rarely get enough space.
I’m realizing how deeply music has accompanied me throughout my life. Not just as a soundtrack for the good times, but as an outlet, a playground, a place where contradictions are allowed to coexist. That’s where Rein.Hart comes from. Not from endless club nights, but from fascination. From the feeling that 90s rave music carried: loud, exaggerated, sometimes ridiculous, yet always honest in its promise of freedom.
“Rave und Ekstase” feels especially present right now. Almost like a counterweight to this environment. While everything around me is structured, calm, and therapeutically precise, this track demands neon lights, sweat, and movement. Maybe that tension is exactly what’s needed. Order on one side, escalation on the other.
What I’ve noticed is that ecstasy means something different to me today than it once did. Not total loss of control, but a conscious moment of being fully there. In the body. In the beat. In the now. That might be the reason this song is being released now and not earlier.
Between therapy sessions, walks, and long moments of reflection, something new is taking shape. Not a complete restart, more like a fine adjustment. Rein.Hart remains loud, ironic, and over-the-top. But beneath it all, there’s more clarity than ever before.
The rave doesn’t only begin on the dancefloor. Sometimes it starts quietly. In a room. With a thought. And the decision to keep moving forward.
Deeper in. Always hard.